Sunday, May 18, 2008

Life is calling...

Life is far will you go?

Today, I began a process that will direct my life post-graduation. I started my online application to become a Peace Corps volunteer. I can remember when asked "what do you want to do when you grow up" on a school project I was in 4th or 5th grade when I wrote be a peace corps volunteer.

At the time, I don't think I fully understood what it meant (I probably don't even now.) My heart is set on serving abroad for two years. I want to be able to contribute to a community in a developing country but I'm most curious to find out what I have to learn from nationals of the country that I will get placed in.

Until my departure, my day dreaming will consist of peace corps.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

god it's me again...

and i quite frankly don't understand.

it is one thing to be oblivious to what is happening in the world. if i don't have an idea it makes sense that i have no urge to change anything. but i don't understand how after seeing injustices with my own eyes, how i can go back to normal life.

i'm angry. i'm upset that tonight i will lay my head down in a comfortable warm bed with no worries of what might happen in the night while there are children a third my age sleeping on the hard, cold ground fearing what the darkness brings. why them and not me?

i am not the only person who recognizes the suffering going on in the world. how do we continue to live our extravagant lifestyles while turning our head to the truth.

i realize i am one person of not much influence, or power. and if i go to these people in need, i most likely can't single handedly find a solution to this incomprehensible complex problem. i realize, i do.

but i can be there. i can offer my attention and affection. lord, what is it that you want me to do? what path can i take that best uses my skills? how do i do your will in your timing?

waiting impatiently,

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

35 and counting...

35 days til Africa. There is so much that needs to get done before then.
But I can't help from day dreaming...

Can't wait to hear the laughter and see the smiles of the children... Can't wait to meet the Lord in the streets of Kibera... Can't wait to stare at the waters of the India Ocean and be in awe of the beauty He created...